Monday, April 16, 2012

I Wish

Sometimes I wish everything was different.

That everything wasn't so hard all the time.

That more days numbered "good" instead of "crummy".

That I had the power to change things.

That I had the wisdom to know what to change and how.

That I had the faith to believe in something and the courage to follow it.

Anything, really.

For some days, I don't even believe in myself anymore.

I wish I was stronger.

I wish I was kinder.

I wish I was smarter.

I wish I was more patient and loving and understanding of others.

I wish I forgave easily. 

I wish I didn't weigh the bad so heavily and the good so lightly. 

But most of all, I wish I didn't spend so much time wishing these things.

For all the sincerest wishes in the world still don't amount to anything more than wishful thinking.


  1. have faith, marty! sometimes wishes do come true. : )

  2. I'm sorry, Marty. You're such a good person -- I hope you'll realize that soon. Take care of yourself.

  3. <3
    We love you for all your faults and shenanigans

  4. I'm sorry, I just have to say it: "Looks like someone's got a case of the Mondays!" (If you haven't seen it before, the movie Office Space is worth checking out.)

    I am sending long-distance hugs your way. Also, I think I am older enough to confidently say, "It gets better."

    1. i second the office space recommendation!

  5. I'm torn between posting the lyrics to Skee-Los' "I Wish" and giving you a hug.

    Momma said there'd be days like this, but she didn't say nearly every single blasted day would be like this for days on end. Consider yourself hugged.